Embrace Your Grace
Current mood: blah
Category: Life
There's a Tv show called "Saving Grace" that I recently began watching. The chick in it, Grace, played by Holly Hunter, is a cop and reminds me of myself in much younger days. She's tough, rough, and wild and crazy! She's not afraid to speak her mind and she faces the circumstances of her actions standing on her own two feet. I was once this way.....
Let me tell you about my "inner Grace."
I'm more of a critter-lover than a people-lover, because people let you down so much. I'd save every stray and abused cat, dog, whatever, if I could!
I'm a people-pleaser, even though they hurt and disappoint me. I walk the walk of life, striving to endure its pitfalls and blows. Mostly, I keep to myself. My old man prefers this, anyhow. But, oh, if he were different, and things were different.........
I'd have a full glass of life's splendour each and every day. I'd take a huge bite of chaos and craziness, chew it slowly, and savor every bit of it. I'd run headlong into situations, knowing I'll come out stronger. If reincarnation were real, I'd come back as a wolf, stalking the land and defending my den. I wouldn't be so weak and yielding. Instead, I'd stand up to people. When they brag about THINGS, I'd tell them right out that it does NOT impress me-----I've had THINGS....probably more than they have or ever will have!
Why are friends not really friends, except when they need something from you? When that need no longer exists, they forget you.....they just call to brag about how good their life is going and the things they've bought. I guess this is just one more of life's blows......
So much I wanted to do and now the time for it is past....
I wanted to go skydiving....soar like an eagle. I wanted to open an animal shelter.....so many poor critters I'd have helped! I wanted to take a cruise-----the blue ocean and even bluer skies!
Soon, I'll go home. I hope God will let me visit the places that I loved and miss....
Lake Ontario, where I first found the true peace and quiet of country living. Oklahoma, where I've discovered Native American Indians who are trying to keep their heritage alive. And my homestead here, where I found a nearly perfect love from a man......
To my man, I say: Why wasn't I good enough?
To my children who hold a grudge: Will you ever have another mom?
To my friends: Was I just an ear?
For now, I want ALL of life every day...........